.turn off the music, take away the spotlights, say what you want to say but i’m still gonna shine.

waaahhhh..umalis na si jico…;(  sino na ang mag-te2xt samin nila rob at magtatanong ng "ate jen sn k?"…well may chikka messenger naman..hehe…at sino na ang manglilibre sa yellow cab??? huhuhuhu…at wala na kong aasarin sa next na UAAP pag magkalaban ulet ADMU at UST (kung yung dad mo pa rin yung coach,haha)..waaahhhhh….at sino na ang kakantahan namin ng Tokyo Drift revised version??? amf.=p  JICO!!!! walang net@home sa States!!!! at isa pa..wala na kaming wogag (walking gago..hehe) na bibili ng benteng (venti) praffucino (frap) sa starbux!!! wala na ring maghahanap ng hoodblum (hoodlum) at magtatanong kung anong meaning ng rendezvous na ang matatandaan nyang meaning ay "self"..whooo, jico panalo ka talaga! =)  kaya naman ang sad dahil natuloy yang pag-alis mo…natuwa na sana kami nung di ka aalis nung october eh..hmmph…pinaasa mo lang pala kame..wahehe. at pano na ang love team niyo ni bess??? nyahahaha..=p  and there’s more…wala nang magpapadugo ng belly ni robin…wala nang babalian ng ribs si coeli..wala na kaming tatawaging "jikool"…awwww…teka, para ka namang namatay..wahehehe..anyway, sana hindi totoo na after 15 years ka pa babalik kasi dahil dun nag panic si landlord mo (may ari ng bahay kung san ka lagi nakikitulog) kaya nag plano pa kami under the tree habang malakas ang ulan para sundan ka sa airport tapos hindi rin pala matutuloy ang pagsunod nila..hahahaha…well, well….ano ba magagawa namin e habang tntype ko toh asa naia ka na..hmph.  jico, isa lang ang gusto ko talaga sabihin sayo…subukan mong bumalik dito ng walang pasalubong…magtutuos tayo!!! wahehehe..=p

just watched "World Trade Center" with robin and coeli kanina sa eastwood…at ‘di kami maka get over sa scene where Jesus appeared and He was holding out this mineral water bottle to a WTC victim who was stuck in the rumbles…haha..panalo..sooper laugh trip yung pagkagawa nung scene eh..sorry naman..hehe..=p  pero mas panalo ata ang mga boys na nakita namin ni coeli after the movie..whooo…ahehehe..=) 

and speaking of water…swimming galore kami kahapon nila coeli, rob, jico, rj and he-who-must-not-be-named (ayan ah..=p) at rob’s place.  well, before that nag bball muna sila sa C2S park..and oh yes, jarencio talaga si jico..haha..kamusta naman sa bball skills niya..ahaha..=p  anyway..back to the swimming kyeme…ayun, picture picture forever (ang vain ni he-who-must-not-be-named!!! hahaha)…panalo ang Happy peanuts na dala ni rj…ang daya ni rob and he-who-must-not-be-named sa agawan base [hehehe..whatta game sa pool]…at tama bang palakarin ako sa 8 feet na part ng pool??? buti sana kung si "condor" yung nagpalakad sa’kin..hahaha..=p  what else..hmmm…ang ganda ng timing ng ulan..haha..ang init nung asa court kame tapos nung asa pool na kame..the rain poured hard..amazing..haha.  at sino ang pasaway sa clearance day at kyeme niya?? haha..well well…’yan tuloy, ahaha..but then again, cheer up…maayos niyo yan..*wink*..=)  hmmm..uhmmm..ayun..that’s about it…actually, madame pa nangyari but i’m too lazy to put ‘em all here..hehe..and if I were you I’d watch "World Trade Center"..para ma-gets niyo kung bakit panalo yung Jesus and the mineral water bottle scene..haha..seriously though, it’s a rather nice movie..a tear-jerker…blah blah blah…=p

hulaan kung para kanino toh..ang makatama sa hula, lilibre ko..hehehehe…*smile*….*kilig*…*sigh*….=)

labis akong nahuhumaling
sabik sa bawat sandaling ika’y makapiling
giliw, hayaang lumapit
‘wag mo sanang ipagkait
mamalas ang langit

CHORUS:

anong nadarama
tuwing makikita kang dumarating 
tuliro, ‘di malaman ang gagawin
at walang sinumang
makapipigil sa’kin
at wala nang ibang makapagbabago ng aking isip
sa iyo

wari’y ‘di ko na malimot
mga galaw at kilos mo 
sa aking pagtulog 
at sa panaginip
ika’y mamalagi nang
‘di na muling malulumbay
sa aking paggising

anung nadarama 
ngayong sa isip ko’y hindi ka maalis
tuliro, ‘di malaman ang gagawin
anung nadarama
ngayon at nandrito ka sa aking tabi
tuliro, ‘di malaman ang gagawin

and can i say ulet na kinikilig ako? ahaha…amf..=) at COELI, feeling ko kilala mo kung sino itez…bwahahahaha!!!! =p

*sigh*…i have been missing a lot of people lately…don’t get me wrong though, i have a wonderful set of new friends…but there’s really some people that i’d love to catch up with…and here goes my list: (and i really do hope that they’ll get to read this)…

1. Jo-an Icban : goldfish!!! where are you?? haha..i mean i know your whereabouts but i haven’t seen you for the longest time..i miss your sabaw moments…and you have been missing out on a lot..and most of all..I MISS YOU A LOT…buti pa kami ng brother mo nagkikita, haha..=p

2. Kwinsi : *poof*..*poof*..*poof*…POOF BACK!! haha..i sooper miss our late night talks…and your sermons too (although there’s nothing to make sermon about anymore, haha..or meron ata..hehe). and i have been watching Philippine Idol which makes me wonder all the more about why you’re not there..hmmph. hmm..nyeta, Kwinsi..holla back!!!! playing "Gusto" over and over again will not do..hahahaha…i would love to talk to you soon..really soon…=)

3. Arianne Ramos : A!!!! isa ka pa!!! ano bei..magsawa sa UST at sa bahay mo, haha. i really miss you…and i have a lot to make kwento about..things that only you could listen too..haha..seriously though..dude, uber miss na kita…

4. CBG : Chicken Bacolod Girls!!!! huhu..i’m longing for the sooper girly stuff we used to do together..haha…AYLA and our sabaw moments,MUFFY and our s** alks.haha..bleah plus your room,MAKAT and her kasabugan,ABI and her sob stories,CHANTAL and her mga panalo na rants about everything,haha…i miss all of you…and we have to get back together soon..chanti is leaving na diba? bummer. let’s go gimik ASAP!!!! haha.

5. Jempot : i’m here and you’re there sa Virginia (the state..not the street,haha)…need i say more?? waahhh…bumalik ka na dito!!!!

6. Chino Ahorro : parang ang layo pa rin ng bahay mo ah..haha..at kelan ka magpapainom sa new house niyo? we’re still waiting..haha..=p

7. Mela : girla!!!! i miss our pasaway moments together…especially our boy hunting moments..haha..hindi, especially pala our Blue Onion and Ipanema moments..kaw lang ang sumasama sa’kin sa ledge..hahaha!!! miss ko na din ang ating one-on-one na Red Horse Grande moments. =) and you’re one of the few people I know na I can converse with in english…hehe..dammit, manganak ka na nga!!! hahaha..=p

8. Lowe : san ka nanaman nagsuot? haha..but then again I know na you’re busy..hehe..oh well, malapit na sembreak..aariba nanaman tayo..hehe. (by the way, I miss na rin my Sponge Cola CD..my Fragments collection..they’re all with you..hehe..=p)

–> hmmm…there there..got my sentiments out…those people are the ones i miss the most…and then there’s: Amil and his brutal moments..haha, Ake (although you’re just one text away..hehe), Jose and his love stories..hehe, Kix and our own radio station (bwahahahaha!!!)…there you go..

so people, if you see your name up there..you know what to do…=)

"let your absence be felt in a way that you’re missed…not in a way that people learn to live without you…" =)

thanks to net @ home …may bago kameng tropa nila coeli…and for the past week..mejo araw araw lang naman kame uminom ng gran matador..haha. 

uhmm..nag-start yun one saturday..birthday ni bess, so pumunta kame [as in ako, bess,coeli,janno,rob, rj, mark, and vincent] sa villa trum (haha) and syempre inuman galore. come monday, aba naman at inuman ulet with basically the same people except bess at idagdag mo lang sila mhek,blaine,he-who-must-not-be-named,joneil,lowe,and mark..kala janno kame nag-inuman and nag suck & blow, haha.. — ang favorite game namin of all time..hehehe.  tuesday naman, inuman ulet!!!! ang kasama naman si he-who-must-not-be-named,rj,mhek,sam,jico,blaine and ivan..well..di kame nakuntento sa suck and blow..naging spin-the-fone na at tinadtad namin ang isa’t isa ng mga dare (which i’d rather not tell, haha.. =p).  the next day which was wednesday, inom pa rin!!! haha..same people..same trip.  thursday, inom again!!! haha..siyempre, birthday party kasi ni mhek..same people pa rin dagdag niyo lang si breechy na biglang napasubo sa mga dare namin..hahaha.  then comes friday, amf..inom lang ng inom!!! hahaha..pero mejo mas maaga natapos ang inuman dahil nagkaayan mag-dota ang mga boys [rj,blaine,antz,rob,vincent,jax,janno, and sam]..pero ‘di na sumama si he-who-must-not-be-named dahil wala pa daw siya tulog..bakit kaya? bwahahaha!!! =p  and syempre..di namin pinalampas ang saturday..inuman again..kala janno…pero it ended rather early kasi may tbs ako sa laguna the following day…pero pagkabalik ko naman ng monday..inom ulet!!!! hahaha…=)

haayyy…what can i say…thanks to net @ home talaga at may bago na kameng kainuman nila coeli and he-who-must-not-be-named…haha…and this time hindi na gin puro ang favorite drink namin..it’s Gran Matador this time…ahaha.  *wink*

["Hey everybody, sorry it has been so long since I've updated you. I've been very busy. I know there are alot of rumors floating around about my status with BSB. After thirteen years of what can only be described as a dream come true, I have decided to leave the Backstreet Boys. It was a very tough decision for me but one that was necessary in order for me to move on with the next chapter of my life. Howard, Brian, Alex, and Nick will always be my little brothers and will continue to have my utmost love and support. I want to thank you all for the beautiful memories we have shared together and look forward to including you in the next phase of my life. I wish my brothers continued success and look forward to their new album. Peace and love, Kevin Richardson"]

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that’s good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that’s between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we’ve gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you’re not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you’ve shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

(Somehow)
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we’ve gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life yeah)

Never gone from me
If there’s one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we’ve gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)

Never gone, never far
In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are)
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

…i just wish he didn’t have to leave BSB…it’s not the same without him… =(

[*glum face*...tinotopak nanaman ako..haha...i guess somethings never change...nah...lemme rephrase that..everything changes but there are things that never really go away...haha..]

"Who Knew" — Pink

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you’d be around
Uh huh
That’s right
I TOOK YOUR WORDS
AND I BELIEVED
IN EVERYTHING
YOU SAID TO ME
Yeah huh
That’s right

If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them up
Cause they’re all wrong
I KNOW BETTER
CAUSE YOU SAID FOREVER
And ever
WHO KNEW

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I’d give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
For they’re long gone
I guess I just didn’t know how
I was all wrong
THEY knew better
STILL you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I’ll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won’t forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
Cause they’re all wrong and
THAT LAST KISS…

I’LL CHERISH
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
YOU VISIT ME IN MY SLEEP
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew